`at the beginningg_//

ouch!

2005-11-09T19:07:00.000-08:00

feeling darn sick now! gosh. everywhere is in pain. =/ !! i DONT like!
went wakeboarding yest, with my boss and some friends. fun but aching and tiring! i wan to go agn. laughs. might be going agn this sunday. gosh. my neck is like aching pain can?!

well, i'm in jiemei's hse now. just woke up. late for work alrdy and yet i'm still here blogging. but who cares la. i'm like damn tired. feel like taking mc today but cant. sighs. this job is tiring me out.

k lah. i think i hafto stop blogging here. i need to rest for a while before i head to work. tatas~

allalone?!

2005-11-04T01:26:00.000-08:00

wells, went town with bell,zen and cindial. took pics. damn nice. but my eyes are all swollen! very ugly. laughs. they say i looked cock-eyed. laughs. so mean right? ate burger king and still feeling hungry! gosh, i think i'm turning into a pigg!

i cannot! i must cut down on my meals. im growing bigger each day! =x and i dont like it! owells, went momo yest, saw him.! sighs. he brought me outta momo. i felt so oh my gawd! i dont wan the feelings to be back agn. i've had enough of hurts lah! gosh. whatever~

okoks. i guess i'll blog other days. kinda busy right now. tatas peeps

imALLaloneNOW

2005-10-22T13:43:00.000-07:00

its totally over. for good. =( but gotten over it la. so long alreadyy. laughs. desmond coming back on 28!! he wants me to go fetch him. smiles. he never call me today. sad sad. =/ but its better like that. make me miss him more. laughs. i bought a topman cap for chris. dunnoe wan to pass to him anot. pass also no use. =/ was actually searching for a v neck but very hard to find. i mean i cant ind his SIZE. hahas. XL still too small. lol. =x alrites i've gotta go already. shall blog when i'm free. adios. =)

fuck-tard

2005-10-18T15:59:00.000-07:00

gosh! i feel so so so cheated. again and once again. but in fact not a bit sad, i think. laughs. gotten over it. cause he's like so, oh gosh. shall not speak about it. i cant stand it la. he's so heartless and full of bullshit. so he's got somebody right after we broke up. aww! how can he be so , yuck! totally pissed me off. gosh. i fell with the wrong one again. another flirt! GUYS should get a life. except for those diff ones. whateverr~ i'm just so pissed. feeling so cheated. he left me feeling so stunned. i couldnt believe that he did dat! left me with a messed mind and freaking hurt me so deep!!! guess i would have to look closer before i fall again. just get out of my life la. -.-

din have enough sleep yesterday. laughs. my mates woke me up with their voices so had to leave to go eat with them. just ate chicken rice so here i am. using the com typing my feelings out. hoping he'll read it and knoe how i feel. aww. i'm so silly and dumb. i shouldnt have loved him So much. no use! piece of smelly cowdung. =x only knows how to fuck around and forget to clear his shit. laughs! i'm terribly hurt and pissed. alrights. i think i better stop blabbering. gotta find new templates. tatas~

I'M TERRIBLY PISSED.!
-amelia-

i miss twinnie!!!

2005-10-08T06:58:00.000-07:00

i miss my twinnie darling!! sighs. gonna see her today. saw the video with her. i miss her presence. lol. now at mac using pt friend's labtop. gonna see twinnie at 10. i miss her so damn freaking much. as for what happened lately, i've gotten over it. i guess. just glad we had a history. i decided not to brood over guys anymore. i guess thats all i hafta blog for tody. will blog tonight. tatas~

its all over. =/

2005-10-05T02:53:00.000-07:00

jus came back from work. feeling kinda restless but decided to blog for a lil while. well, din really brood over him for the last few days. kinda gotten over it. fast huh. lol. its better dis way. but i still miss him. guess i dont really hafta be so moody over it. as long as he's HAPPY i'm glad enough. single life is better i guess. 2 new girls came in from pub 82. they're doing quite well and guess its better for ah boy. i musimprove my performance. well. guess i hafta go get some rest. damn tired. gotta zhaos. bye peeps. smiles

ROMEOandJULIET*

2005-07-28T19:00:00.000-07:00

fallen in love with the show romeo and juliet already. because of HIM. lol. din blogg for damn long already. manyy stuffs happened lately. now working hard to earn money. and bell my beloved jiemei moved in to stay with me. =) evrynite we gossip till we fall asleep. like how we used to crap and laugh in school. miss those times. well~ given up and forgotten that guy. =/ i thought it was difficult but my juliet guided me thru. it took so hard for me to forget him till HE appeared. and came into my life. he's charming and much better than him. not cause of looks. its his character. i love egoistic guys. but same thing. i'm too young. ~!! -sighs- i hate that word young. young at age but not young at thinking. well~ at least he's trying to adapt to my age. anyways, i nvr really wan HIM to be mine. i dont mind WE staying in this way. it might last longer. "bu zai hu tian chang di jiu, zi zai hu chen jing yong you" even if we end this jianfu yingfu relationship, i'm satisfied with the memories. the happy memories. the times we shared. but i obviously dont wanna lose him. =/ gotta zhaos. to be continued---->

decided;to;totally;let;go**sighs

2005-06-30T15:47:00.000-07:00

went chinablack last weds. haii. wanted to go devils to see him but i guess fate decides dat i cant see him. -sighs- decided to really give up. okayy lah. kinda easy now. i'm sure i can de. i need to find someone who's working and not doing nothing at home. but my career comes first. hahs. waiting to save moneyy so i can leave singapore to london to further my studies.

well, i guess i can give up almost evrything in singapore except for my parents and the guy i love. ohh goshh. i'm always falling in love when i'm single. shits. hmm.. maybe its a good thing. kus i can finally get him off my mind. but now fall in love with a guy who has a gf. but he really cares for me. well. i dont intend to brk them u anywayy. let nature take its course. i have many other choices what! =x but i will try to win him. hees. he really cares for me. but i'm afraid he feels i'm too young too. anyways. i dont intend to surrender my heart to anyone anymore. its gonna be so hurting. haii. guess maybe its retribution? -sighs- I'M HAVING BAD ULCERS NOW! aww! cant even eat! ate less then one egg prata for like a whole day. heh. maybe i can go on a diet too. lols. alrites. guess i have to end here for today. gotta get some sleep. tatas peeps.
[x]]ILOVECHRIS[x]]

`its;all;over;now;; -sighs-

2005-06-18T06:20:00.000-07:00

its all overr lerr. haii. i have to give up on him no matter what now. its totally impossible between us now. -sighs- he told me he cant find feelings for me. guess i hafta really forget him and carry on. =/ very sad. cried at finz that day when he told me. boss all came to comfort me. haii. i still love him. how to forget?!! guess it takes time bah. so mani better ones out there for me. =) like ken. =x lol. alrights. i guess i hafta get going. gotta go find jason lerr. tatas peeps.~
[x]]little`miss;depressed[x]]
istillloveeuu. =/

`ai;yi;ge;ren;hao;nan # it;;hurts

2005-06-15T01:30:00.000-07:00

imisshim. =(
he has nvr replied my msg ever since sat. y? -sighs- shud i jus give up? i dont wan to! is he jus making use of me or what? i feel damn depressed. what am i to him? jus a xiaomeimei?! i feel like telling him to stop making me fall for him. he's making me feel really fuckedd up. i told him i wanna give up but he made me feel like he doesnt wan me to. if he wont ever choose me y mus he make me like him. i feel like screaming can?!~ arghss!!!! very troubled. somebody make me give him up can? get him outta my life. i've had enough, enough of this shit. always falling for the wrong guy! -sighs-

going to work in another 2 hours time. then maybe going momo bar to check out kus chris jio me go, ladies nite mah. =) i shall enjoy myself anf free myself from problems. gotta zhaos.
tatas~
[x]]little`miss;depressed[x]]

YOU;got;ME;going;CRAZY;over;YOU;boy*

2005-06-13T03:31:00.000-07:00

going to work ltr. so make use of my time now first. =) went to this este bar at clarke quay on sat. the place looks damn nice but the music ther made me wanna sleep. -.-" went ther with finz ppl and my da jie gracie. hahas. went ther fer like less then 2hours then went over to devils. saw HIM ther. hehes. went to dance with him at dancefloor. =x was kinda happy but haii. i was abt to give up then after that day is like i'm falling for him even more. =/ burnt my hand with ciggarette at finz that day. perlin lahh! lol. MY beer BELLY getting bigger. shit! mus start to go swimming more often liaos. lol. well. i think i gotta go soon. gotta get rdy for work lerr. time to drink agn. feeling depressed once agn! dunow what to do!! haii. tatas peeps~
[x]little`miss;depressed[x]
amitooyoungforyou?! -sighs-

`giving;him;up;aint;easy -sighs-

2005-06-11T03:49:00.000-07:00

working at a pub now. =)) at central mall. the place is like heaven lorr. i'm like enjoying myself working therr. nigel came to see me yesterday with kim soon and atwell. =) he bought for me a big big mickey mouse and a beautiful rose. damn damn damn happy!! went liquid room with gracie. the place is like freaking cramped and my ears all stucked. hate that place. hahas.i think i'm giving huazaii up lerr. haii. he thinks i'm too young. -sighs- aiyah. i think its better this way. well, i think staying single for the moment is better. anyways. i gotta earn money for my future first. lols. i love that mickeyy mouse to the max lorr. hahas. gonna hugg it tightly. i love you sweetie!! nvr gonna let you slip off agn. gonna keep you by my side all the way. =) hehes. alrites. gotta go lerr. update some other days bah. meeting gracie go FINZ agn. =)
tatas peeps~

wishing for you to be mine;;

2005-06-01T04:25:00.000-07:00

updated not long ago but din seem to appear. -.- lols. manyy stuffs happened in my life over the last few weeks. still single till now. waiting ferr him to be mine. =x haii. been thru lots of stress and depression. luckily my jiemeii was still there for me. and a saint came into my life to guide me thru. lols. almost fell in love with him but my love for huazaii was too strong to overcome. that saint had always been there for me when i needed him. =)) he calls me an angel but i'm not EVEN! hahas. well. now still looking for a job to stable down with so i can further my studies. =/ haii. i guess i'm not gonna give up on HIM until he tells me to bahh. its really difficult to wait for a person. -.-" but i'm gonna tolerate till the very last bit.
went out with selina, steoh and jerrin yesterday. had lots of fun. really glad that the 4 of us are back together agn. hope it'll be like this always. crapping and sharing stuffs together. thats the best way to enjoyy mann. lols. but still i'm not happy enough. still thinking of HIM all the time. siann. playing drugs wont help too. =x hahas. maybe a lil lahh. but depression the nxt dayy. =/ haii. well. guess i hafto go now. peeps. pls leave a tag for me alrites? tatas~
[x]little`ms;depressed[x]
loving;euu;alwayss

it's all over

2005-04-28T07:41:00.000-07:00

all over lerr. haii. i guess its a happy thing. =x hahas. no more worries. i can enjoy myself. being single aint that bad mahhs. lols. i can do whatever i want. i miss my nu-errs badly! haii. i miss my darling jessica meii. haii. i miss the class. =x oks. went to suntec ALL ALONE today. actually SOME biatch is supposed to peii me go interview BUT she OVERSLEPT! so i went ALL ALONE. hahs. horr fong li xian. hahas. kidding lahh. lols. i love herr lahh. my hao pengg you fer life mann. now at cyber with my 2 darlings. tweety and fishball face. lols. and i'm finding nemo. dunoe why also?! lols. haii. i miss minghua. =x alrites. i shall not talk much lerr. if not blabber too much not good. lols. I CUT MY HAIR. i feel its kinda nice lah actually. =x alrites. tatas peeps.~~
signing off]]
`ameliaa**

haii. troubled

2005-04-24T10:36:00.000-07:00

went to cine to meet evon today. was supposed to go catch a movie at ps with my bf and evon but didn't watch kus we missed the last movie. so we took a bus back to bedok. my dear felt so cold towards me today. haii. really very troubled. very afraid to lose him. never felt this way fer suchh a long time. and i really hate the feeling. haii. after taking the bus to bedok, my dear went to inter to meet his friends. den me and evon went to our house area to have some food. den after eating, i came to her hse. and here i am. hahs. i wanted to use com to talk to some ppl but he not online. sighs. i hate feeling troubled. cant sleep well for the past few nights. dunoe thinking of my dear or dat somebody else. he like totally never ans my call can?! haii. i was hoping to chat with him online today. i doubt that he's interested in me. he told me that like jus one or two week ago but he like din wan to talk to me. haii. kena bluffed agn. i hate it lah can.! i shall jus try to stop thinking bahh. alrites lahh. think i better end here or i'll blabber non-stop. lols. tatas peeps. FRIENDS. pls tagg me!

fallinginloveagn.

2005-04-24T06:05:00.000-07:00

patched with my darling ah boy. hahas. damn happy. but i'm kinda insecured. i dont really feel dat he's serious. maybe is kus i love him too much liaos. hahs. haii. but somehow i think i have a little bit of feelings for dat someone. i always call him but he always never ans. sometimes i also feel fan over that person. but i reali dunoe if its jus a crush or what. haii. i think abt him almost evryday sia. haii. shit lahhs. i dont wan to love 2 ppl at a time can!!! i feel bad can. kks. i dont have much time to type lerr. i gotta catch a movie soon. gotta zhaos. byes peeps.

2005-04-10T16:54:00.000-07:00

patched back with my ah boii yesterdae. hees. =) he go back camp liaos. haiis. miss him loads. i hope me & him can settle down. i dont wish to continue flirting lerr. after so long at last i get to patch with him. decided to really settle down with him. =)) haii. i still got another 5 days to see him. jus less den one day i start to miss him lerr. hahs. i guess i'm kinda mad over him. mcvin will be out of my life! i swear. whats over is over. i will not let my love for mcvin break me and ah boii up. hees. i guess he also found someone else alreadyy. well. who cares?! lol. alrites. i guess its time fer me to go to sleep. its so late alreadyy. update my blog when i'm free lorr. =)) tatas peeps. adios.

2005-04-07T03:27:00.000-07:00

it has been ages since i last updated my blog. i din have time to update actually. haii. many things happened after dis long while of not updating my blogg. =/ dont really wish to talk abt it. well. changed my blogskinn. felt kinda bored with my earlier one. tried to look for one skin dat can last long. but i always get sick & tired of the skins. -.-" my com still haven fix. so have to spend money to use com. haiyohs. went to school today. after 2 days of relaxation. slacked opp. sch with terr & lishi n crapped. hahas. miss the times when me and ter always together. always crapping & laughing togther. hahas. we kinda like drift apart liaos. =( i cant wait to go malaysia to shop fer mickey stuffs. ohh yeahh!! lols. lame lahhs. -.-" oks. big news. mcvin have girlfriend lerr. but none of my business. hahas. alrites. gotta go do other stuffs lerr. adios peeps. =)) take cares.

2005-01-20T17:50:00.000-08:00

change of blogskin agn. been ages since i blogged. hahas. kks. busy doing my other blog stuffs. other days den blog. =) tatas~